Maybe I want to explain something inexplicable, maybe I want to say something that's hard to express, but I'm definitely thinking of something inexplicable. In the relationship between a man and a woman exchange emotions between them in a supernatural way, unlike the usual.
In the midst
of this kind of feelings, the woman will appear as a tyrannical queen in the
kingdom of love and adoration, but rather she will be the first lady in this
kingdom, and she will be the first and last commandment in the parish and the
people, which is then represented in her feelings and emotions with this queen
or of this kind when she loves it will be Certainly unusual.
What I feel
now and which I have always hated is the control that I have always felt was
taking my freedom, which you imposed on me in your relationship with me, so I
remain as if I were indifferent to continuing your love, but remained as you
are indifferent to love you. Because if you love me I will run away from you, I
hate mutual love because it only produces children, headaches and nights of
social yawning. She tells him to stay indifferent away. To love you and to
remain the impossible man in my life who feeds my longing To keep hovering
around the forbidden tree and looking at the desired apple Because when I bite
the apple I fall asleep bored and sleepy.. and my heart is stagnant and tired.
Will you
believe me when I tell you I love the same moment, I love the same situation,
I'm not you, I don't adore you! You are far from my imagination, completely
away from my life, but it is the state, the feeling, that it remains. As for
you, you do not disappear and hide away from me.. I do not want you. It will
never be you, I love all humanity. But I discovered in me a strange thing, that
the more I love all humanity in one sentence, the less I love human beings
individually. As a woman I have the ability to hate the best human being in a
period of twenty-four hours! Why ? Because I became an enemy of humans whenever
I approached them, especially you, man..the impossible man in my life..I feel
that my approach to a person in general or a man in particular, I feel as soon
as I approach any individual that he collides with myself and assassinates my
freedom,, although I am ready To pray for the sake of humanity and all humanity
and to do a great deed. But in spite of that, I cannot bear to live with one person
or some man in one room for more than forty-eight hours!! Perhaps I see in
front of me boring and unbearable for reasons that may be trivial to others.
But they crush me from the inside and even kill me..Maybe this is boring
because he chews food slowly and this is unbearable because he sneezes or
coughs a lot! And other and other reasons.
Will you
believe me when I tell you that I adore the same moment, I adore the same
state, I am not you, that I do not adore you! You are far from my imagination,
far from my life, but it is the state, the feeling, it is what remains..and you
disappear, I now hear the moan of your questions and see the eagerness and
surprise of your eyes and you ask me why and how? ,, Do you know why? Because
this feeling is sincere to me, and that moment is honest and never deceptive,
but you are the traitor, you are the treacherous, angry, ignorant, I really do
not want you, I do not want you at all.. I want the same honesty, the same
sincerity, tenderness itself, and the very warmth, it is the warmth of the
moment, its sincerity and its innocence that was not polluted by your hands and
was not killed by your cruelty, and was not slain by your stubbornness,
stupidity, or your pride. My eyes and disappear forever, even if we have a
share to meet, I don't want that, I don't want it at all, you are in my eyes no
more than a pile of burning ash, it was a fire one day and then it was
extinguished.. I'm nothing more than a painting that was sold for cheap after
the painter spent an eternity In drawing and coloring it, then suddenly he felt
the disappointment of a candle who sacrificed herself to light up a blind room!
How difficult it is to discover suddenly and too late.. you have always dealt
with the likes! Semi-lovers...like friends...or even like men...it's a very bad
feeling..I have realized that nothing is real and constant in my life with
you..nothing but looks..like things..like feelings...and similar situations..
Just to change..this is how I am with you, man! . You are very far away from
me, but farther than your imagination can imagine, and bigger than your memory
can accommodate, it is true that we did not part, but we will never meet! Stay
the moment..and perpetuate the feeling..but for you, please,, please and swear
with all your preciousness to go away and leave me alone, go leaving behind you
the pulse of the feeling and the warmth of the moments..it was few,, yes, a
few..but it is very much as much as I said it .. very long as it is short,,,
very warm despite the cold that surrounded it!!! And don't be surprised by my
demands..never be surprised..and remember that this feeling and that
warmth..one day came to you running and hit the rock of your stubbornness and
slaughtered its honest moments under the blades of the sword of your lies and
evasion..and the coldness of this warm feeling in the frost of your fear and cowardice...but
my tender hands I fixed all the fractures.. and cured all diseases and
ailments..until I recovered completely from you..from your ignorance,, from
your arrogance, from the darkness of your heart..please...don't put yourself or
me in this critical situation..I am no longer I want you..and your pleas to me
no longer do me any good or harm...even a feeling of pity, I believe in you!
Even this feeling, you don't deserve it.. I no longer need you. And you no
longer mean anything to me... My advice to you is to keep what's left of your
face and go away from me... How hard is the need for someone you don't mean or
you don't mean anything to him anymore.. Believe me, I tried a lot to reconcile
with my feelings in order to satisfy you.. I tried to respond to her pleas to
pardon, forgive, or even come even one step closer, but to no avail.. (I
overcame to reconcile in my soul so that it would not satisfy you) It no longer
has a place for me.. I expelled it from the depths of my heart.. and from all
that is evil, it was expelled without return.. The truth is that I no longer
find in you my pleasure, my comfort, nor my comfort.. these things no longer
amuse me. The little girl who comforted me on the day you were gone, or the day
we met or met each other...my dear, you lost the battle and I won it...so get
out of it blameworthy and defeated forever...I'm not accustomed to losing, no
matter how much I suffer, no matter how much I suffer, no matter how lost my
paths are. Victory is always my ally in the end...I am very sad because I see
that you are ignorant of the truth that I knew..How difficult it is for someone
who knows the truth alone..Woe to the people. Who knows who does not know.... I
hope you will realize that one day... It is better for a person to be miserable
and knowledgeable... than to be happy and deceived!... Why do I see you looking
at me silent as an idiot? Were you surprised by my words..or did my words scare
you..or did you want me to be a wreck to collect and to always need you..this
is what you want and what you wish for..but no way...(I still remember my
heart, my hand is safety) There is a difference between what you want and
between love and giving. The real ones... Do you think that the gap is wide
between the two of them!!!!
We are two
parallel lines, each of us walking in a different direction..It is true that we
have not separated, but we will never meet! I prefer to live in the shadows..I
prefer to live immersed in this life..and even more than that, it makes me
happy to find myself in it a small corner or a small corner.in any spot on the
globe and I hide between its walls happy and peaceful away from you..proud My
freedom that released my hands from your heavy chain and freed me from it...so
that I may be hidden or buried or even on the sidelines..but I am happy.free
and free..your wings flutter in the sky of my freedom that I struggled for
until its sun rose and its rays filled my life with light... Now, do not
disturb my peace by your absence, or your stubbornness and arrogance, or your
cowardly pride! The thunderous... The important thing is that I found myself...
after I searched a lot in the sides of myself that were lit up by your
darkness!!!? far away and fills my soul and soul together with the glowing
light...and then I asked myself one question? Are there things that only happen
once in our lives? Then it does not repeat after that..Does a person sometimes
see the truth of things at the end of the hallway of the corridors of this
harsh time? This has already happened..do you know when? One day I thought I
could see everything, but in reality I didn't see anything!!!! And after you
fell into the abyss of your inferno... At that moment, I asked myself a
question that he should have asked? where am I now ? At the bottom... Yes, at
the bottom.. I laughed sarcastically, saying: Good... at least we won't fall
again... What's after the bottom?!! All my words and actions.. and you make fun
of everything I say and do..then I asked you to put a title for my story with
you,, so I sighed with fidgeting and burned my face with the sighs of your hot
summer's breath...my answer surprised you with eager eagerness to quench the
thirst of confusion on your lips and before you could speak I told you that the
best The title of this anecdotal farce is (Wrong Idea).... Oh, that's how I
thought the wolf could be a gentle lamb! To this extent, you lied the truth and
believed the lies! What a well-made deception... I have seen artificial colors
as a real paradise! I never thought it was nothing more than a peel or a raging
inferno mask! I laughed so much that my throat shook and my laughter made fun
of me...Then I laughed and laughed so much that my tears flowed...The sarcastic
laughs mingled with pain! Dirt mixed with water...and fire with air...I
remember this day..before you asked me..I will answer you.. It was the day you
came to me confident of stepping as a king to tell me in one way or another
that you will live and live in a house next to me and near me..we thought that
I would fly with joy at this news...what an irony of fate...I don't know
whether fate mocked you or me? It is true that you are breathing the air that I
breathe. And you live in the neighborhood in which I live.. and you pass from
the street in front of my house... true... true all of this I do not deny...
you have become very close to me.. but the closer you are, the farther from
me... you exist, you are already near me. But you are not in me or in me at
all!!!! As close as you are, you are far away!!! How close you are to me and
how far you are from me!!!! I am very sorry to inform you that your hopes have
been dashed... I am no longer me... I came too late my dear... Too late.. Do
you know that with what you did you became like someone who asks for warmth
after the winter has passed!!! And as someone who asks for life after
annihilation!!!...You should know, sir, that the time has passed and the cord
has been cut....but may I now send you a short message that I am confident that
you will receive letter by letter and word for word: (Dear man, I did not
affect me Everything that happened and I was not affected by the accident...but
it was I who affected the accident, rather everything that happened..Oh, the
impossible man. To you with my mouth full (don't be mine,, don't be mine so
that we don't end up like two frogs communicating in me in the boring details
of life
The
daily..and they drown in the chirping of frequent quarrels, but stay away, an
impossible love, a perfume that I remain thirsty for leaving, literally, where
the quarries of the alphabet of surprise, never respond to me, and let me be
aflame with my impossible longing, stay in my life a renewed book that does not
read, and I will not open the stacked papers in any One day, I want your love
to be a cry that pierces me and soundless like the cries of statues in immortal
cities Stay as you are the impossible man and the unfinished love in my life
Let my alphabet bleed its flames away from the bleak joys You wanted to make me
a cold, dreary fake queen in your snowy palace But I preferred to I'm a tramp
in the wilds of my freedom.
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